Just breathe
10 April 2013 09:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alice789I feel like I owe some sort of explanation for vanishing.
If I told you that 2012 was the worst year of my life, that would be an understatement. It was complete and utter shit.
Everything bad that could possibly happen to me - well, it did. I'm not going into details, there's just too much.
I accepted all of this - I'm not weak or fragile. And I set out to make sure this year was different. VERY different. I tried to calmly address all the drama and issues that were leaking over from the previous year. I don't like drama, I do everything I can to avoid it. But it has a way of seeping into the cracks and tripping you when you aren't paying attention.
I've been working hard to change things. And at the same time I was breaking down.
I had a serious moment of reflection this last week.
I just smiled. Its not so bad. I need to take my own advice and just stay positive.
I reacted badly, didn't I? I do that sometimes. I'm fallible and human. Thank you for putting up with me.
I'm grateful for everything in my life. Every moment is precious to me. Nothing is trivial.
Everything that happened - it brought me here, to where I am today, and I wouldn't change a thing.
I love who I am, and what I have. Its all that matters.
If I told you that 2012 was the worst year of my life, that would be an understatement. It was complete and utter shit.
Everything bad that could possibly happen to me - well, it did. I'm not going into details, there's just too much.
I accepted all of this - I'm not weak or fragile. And I set out to make sure this year was different. VERY different. I tried to calmly address all the drama and issues that were leaking over from the previous year. I don't like drama, I do everything I can to avoid it. But it has a way of seeping into the cracks and tripping you when you aren't paying attention.
I've been working hard to change things. And at the same time I was breaking down.
I had a serious moment of reflection this last week.
I just smiled. Its not so bad. I need to take my own advice and just stay positive.
I reacted badly, didn't I? I do that sometimes. I'm fallible and human. Thank you for putting up with me.
I'm grateful for everything in my life. Every moment is precious to me. Nothing is trivial.
Everything that happened - it brought me here, to where I am today, and I wouldn't change a thing.
I love who I am, and what I have. Its all that matters.
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Date: 10 April 2013 07:41 pm (UTC)We cannot compare moments in our lives, because what may be insignificant to me might mean the world to you and vice versa. You're entitled to react to the moments in your life the way you see fit. If you don't like it, change it. If it works out, well then you're just one step ahead of the curve, aren't you?
You're absolutely right too. Every moment counts in this world. You aren't guaranteed them, so even the simple act of waking up and breathing the air of another day should account for something. "Stay positive and love your life." That's all we have to live by.
We all love who you are too. Good and bad, for better or for worse, in sickness and in health. There are no other Windy's like you, ever. For that, we have much to cherish.
Good luck as you continue to move forward. Should you need anything, I'm just a message away.